Ouch
February 18, 2009
I hate being sick. But even worse? I hate being sick sick.
I’m dying from a common cold right now – or at least, it feels like dying – lungs have hacking painful cough, sinuses are either aching or clogged with excess mucus production, voice keeps disappearing and throat is raw.
That wouldn’t be so bad if I didn’t have the damn Fibro.
Sickness makes it flare. It’s gotten worse rather than better over the past several years. Sometimes, late at night when I realize just how many pills I have to take to even approximate normalcy any more it hits me… this isn’t going to go away, is it? They don’t know what it is, they only know how to dull down the symptoms. They can’t cure it… and it doesn’t get better over time, it either stays the same or gets worse. Mine got worse.
I find myself doing “pain checks” in my head silently.
- Hands? pain? yes. Left worse than right tonight.
- Arms? pain? not really. Pretty good tonight.
- Shoulders? pain? yes. Achey. Pop when used.
- Back? upper and lower both having issues.
- Hips? nope – phew… surprising when the shoulders are bad
- Legs? nope, not really…
- Knees? mild or stabby – would be worse if the pressure were changing or I were standing Right worst than left tonight.
- Ankles? nope, popping but no pain
- Feet? cold as always… but no real pain comparatively
- Oops – Head? yeah, left jaw under ear – sinuses – miraculously no headache at the moment. huh.
This kind of “systems check” happens several times a day. Only *once* in the past year was the answer to all of the checks “no, no pain” – was very strange. For a brief couple of hours, I wondered if maybe it was gone. Silly me.
I have no immune system to speak of any more. If it’s around? I get it. If I get it? I get it as long as and unpleasantly as possible.
Travel? Wipes me out like I were a 98 year old woman. I try to hide it. I live on pills and 5 Hour Energys and then pay for it afterwards when it’s safe. A full day down, sometimes 2.
In some effort to “fix” my pH imbalance I gave up red meat, soda, and coffee at the beginning of the year. I’ve been trying to eat healthier in general too. Haven’t broken the red meat/soda/coffee prohibition even once. Want to. Desperately want to. Want coffee fiercely. Can feel the difference in my body and wish I had strength to go entirely veg. I don’t. Chicken & fish have saved my sanity. Green Tea is my lifeline.
I want to be “normal” again. I want to wake up, not catalog which parts do or don’t hurt. Eat normal food. Have energy, no pain, be able to work out and lose weight and be healthy without having to take a handful of pills every day.
But right now? I’ll just be content if this frakking cold would go away.
Oh, and sleep, I could use some sleep.
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I hear you! I, too, am a fibro sufferer. I have been told by many doctors that the pain is “all in my head”. ummmm, no, it’s in my arms, shoulders, legs, etc. NOT my head! lol
I was finally able to get a doctor to confirm that it IS fibro, in 2000. Since then, I have been to SSI court 3 times, and a different judge each time. They told me that it’s just a label doctors use when they can’t figure out what’s wrong with you, that there is no real such thing as fibro! How I would DEARLY love to let them have THIS body for a day, and then tell me there is no such thing!
I don’t know you, but a friend sent me the link to this blog.
I have tried ibuprofen ( 2500 mg a day!! ), extra strength tylenol, advil, you name it! I DID finally find something that actually works!! Midol isn’t just for “that time of the month”! It keeps the majority of the pain away for several hours a day, to where I can function almost completely normally!! The fatigue and IBS are still quite present, but the pain IS NOT!
I hope and pray for you, me and all the other fibro victims, that they find a cure, and SOON!
My heart goes out to you, my fibro ridden friend. You’re in my thoughts and prayers that you can find some relief somehow, someway, soon.
I can’t remember the last time I have been able to say that I didn’t feel some kind of pain. I always have a headache, I am always exhausted beyond belief. I have never been diagnosed for anything, I’m just mucking it through, but I really feel for you! I have the flu today too, it’s a butt kicker! I hope that goes away soon for you!
I swear you’re really me, except for the fact that you don’t live in Las Vegas, aren’t divorced and don’t have two teenaged boys…. everything else is dead on!
I’ve had one doctor actually tell me I had Fibro and IBS, the rest say that there’s no such thing and that I should expect to have lots of pain in my back, legs etc because of my broken back. The back surgery I had at the beginning of last year did help my back pain, but it’s not gone, just a lot less… to the point where I can walk for longer than 5 minutes without my back spasming and my feet going totally numb.
I totally feel for you, and hope that your cold gets better, at least to bring you some relief! I guess at least we can all feel better knowing that we’re not alone in these symptoms!
**big hugs**
After reading this – I just want to let you know, that I think you should really look into the Jindal Center –
http://www.jindalnaturecure.org/new-index.html
This is where I went for 21 days. It was truly unbelievable.
I am currently under the weather from a serious cold – or whatever virus is clearly in the air. I swear… I hate having a cold.
As for travel – I hear ya. I have been traveling since December, and finally the other night I got to sleep in my own bed. I had NO idea how tough traveling was on the body!
Anyways – thinking of you. There has to be a better way, a non-medicinal, Eastern way. My mother went to this place and dropped 20 pounds – and its just a miracle place where people go for things that no one can solve. Most clientele are NOT from India itself!
-Neha
The usual remedy for common cold is just lots of water, fruit juice and also vitamin-C tablets.*“
i have been suffering from sinusitis for so many years and i can only relieve the stuffiness of the nose by means of decongestants.,’`
i have been suffering from sinusitis for so many years and i can only relieve the stuffiness of the nose by means of decongestants.::`
there are also some alternative medicines that you can try for sinusitis. i have tried some herbal stuffs and it is good for relieving sinusitis too. .
ibuprofen is definitely the best OTC painkiller for me. It helps me a lot to deal with my muscular pain.::.
ibuprofen is really effective in keeping the pain out.-.’